My birthday was yesterday, I had a wonderful day because recently I’ve learned that to be content and happy depend only on myself, the way I accept and understand what is offered to me. I’ve read, not sure where, that we only find the enemy when we are looking for it; so I’ve decided to look for the best in everyone and all the situations. I don’t want to find a enemy, I’ll not look for it.
When my son called me at work yesterday afternoon and asked me if I could buy my own cake and flowers, because daddy was to busy to do it, I said a big YES, I can do it! I bought myself a beautiful cake and gorgeous flowers and arrived at home happy with a big smile. If this had happened last year, probably it had ended my day, I’d be mad, fighting with my hubby, and making a hell for everyone.
I don’t know exactly when I’ve changed, I believe it’s a gradual process. When I woke up hubby and kids gave me this beautiful card and a mall gift card, so I could buy my own gift! YES, I can do it! I’ve never liked ‘gift cards’, I wanted a real gift, not money, I wanted an expensive gift; something that I could show off to my friends, like ‘do you see how I’m worth to them?”. No more, I don’t need a gift or expensive dinners to know that I’m worth. I ordered this pocket size journal few days ago, it arrived just on time for my birthday, so this is my gift to myself this year, another year I’d buy myself an expensive gift, like a new computer, a phone, spend the day in a luxury spa, and at the end of the day I’d be stressed, tired, and a big hole in my wallet.
I had a beautiful dream with my mother this week, long time I hadn’t dreamed with her, it was a lovely surprised, I could see her, feel her close to me. I tried to understand why she had visited me now and I realized that it was close to my birthday and she gave me this precious gift of her visit. My father called me early in the morning wishing happy birthday, and my relatives and friends called and sent me messages during all the day.
My youngest son made me this cute card
And until Google sent me birthday wishes
I’ve learned that the happiness is inside myself and can’t be found elsewhere.
Have a great Friday and wonderful weekend my friends.