Morning pages

“Writing is like breathing, it’s possible to learn to do it well,

but the point is to do it no matter what.”

Julia Cameron

Hello my friends, I had my surgery on Tuesday, everything went well, samples were taken for biopsy, now I’m waiting for the results.

I’m at home feeling tired and sad, I can’t sleep at night and I’m having horrible nightmares, so real and scary (of course they couldn’t be funny!). I know it can be effect from the anesthesia and should go away soon. Hubby and the kids are taking good care of me, and I’m trying to keep up with the routine. I had planned to go back to work today, but I don’t feel ready to see the world right now.

Writing my morning pages is something that it is keeping grounded, I’ve never thought that a tiny habit could bring such brightness to my life. Words, collage, washi tape, stickers: together they express my feelings and clear my mind.

It’s already December, can you believe it? One month left for the new year! Hope you have a wonderful new month and thanks so much for all the wonderful comments on my last post. You ladies rock!

Sharing with Becca’s Nurturing Thursday.

 

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“Stop focusing on how stressed you are, and remember how blessed you are.”

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A little late for nurturing thursday, maybe not! It’s always time for a little nurturing until if it isn’t a thursday 😊

I wasn’t in a nurturing mood on thursday, I was stressed and worried. I know that when I’m not well is the time that I need more care and nurturing, but my mind doesn’t think like this.

I waited 3 months for my doctor appointment .I went to the appointment 2 weeks ago, and 3 weeks after the appointment I will have a surgery! The doctor said it isn’t a real surgery, it’s a procedure, but if I’ll have general anesthesia and spend the day in the hospital, for me it’s a surgery! Generally we wait months to see the specialist, and many months to have tests and surgeries when necessary. Now you understand why I’m worried: 3 months for the appointment and 3 weeks for the ‘procedure’, it doesn’t match, except if 3 is my lucky number 😄

Maybe some of you ladies have done this procedure before, or heard about it. It’s a hysteroscopy with D&C. My uterus is sick and needs help.

I can’t be worried, it will make things worse for me and my family, so I’m taking easy and nurturing myself. Keeping my mind busy.

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Last night I ate this gorgeous piece of blueberry pie 💙 Many years I don’t eat such a sweet dessert at night! It’s delicious and I enjoyed each tiny crumb of it.

Today I did the laundry and cleaned all the house, and now in the afternoon I was spreading twinkle lights everywhere.

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I’m not sure if I’ll keep these colourful ones, or if I’ll change for plain white, maybe blue.

Now I’m blogging, later on Netflix, so a busy day and evening!

Tomorrow I’m be cooking lots of food, so hubby doesn’t need to worry with it if I can’t cook following the procedure.

I have to agree that the best remedy for stress is to keep the body and mind busy.

Have a great weekend!

Sharing with Becca’s Nurturing Thursday

No worries!

“It makes no sense to worry about things you have no control over because there’s nothing you can do about them, and why worry about things you do control? The activity of worrying keeps you immobilized. “

Wayne Dyer

It’s 10 pm, I’m cozy in my bed drinking tea (made by my son) and looking to the photos I took during the weekend. Trying to keep my mind busy with stuff that give me pleasure, trying to focus on the present moment, to listen to my body and be plenty of myself. I don’t want to worry with what will or won’t be.

Sharing with Becca’s Nurturing Thursday.

Have a great weekend everybody!

Little mantra

‘Let the beauty we love

be what we do.

There are hundreds of ways to

kneel and kiss the ground.’

Rumi

Love and thankfulness are always together, one can’t be complete without the other.

These days I’m in love with all the colours and leaves around me. I always find few minutes during the day to go outside and admire the beauty of the simple things around me.

My mantra is ‘stop, breathe and listen‘. Like a prayer, I say thanks at the end of these few minutes and go back indoors.

And you? What are you thankful these days?

Sharing with Becca’s Nurturing Thursday.

Wrapping up gratitude week

I joining Michelle last week for Gratitude Week 2016. I’m happy that I decided to join her and this group of lovely ladies, some of them my friends for long (Gracie and Connie) and I made new friends too! Here are few things I was grateful last week and I’m still grateful for them.

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The beautiful lawn in my front yard, if I could I’ll stretch it for all the places I step on.

Few minutes I spend on my morning pages each day.

The pretty twinkle lights on my mirror. Gratitude for tiny things are like the twinkle lights, one can’t do much, but when we have few of them together they fill up my space with a soft light, a light that make me happy. The same for the gratitude for the tiny little things around me. Maybe one doesn’t matter much, but when I start to pay attention to all of them, they full fill my soul.

I’m starting this week another of Michelle’s class ‘just five things’, a mix of gratitude and lists. You do know how I love lists, so I’m in.

Have a wonderful week!

Happy Friday!

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In autumn, don’t go to jewelers to see gold;

go to the parks!

Mehmet Murat ildan

Finally Friday, this week was a long one. By Wednesday I was already dreaming about the weekend. The weather is gorgeous, 15 C and seems it will be like this during the weekend. I’m planning in spending most of the time outdoors, taking lots of photos. This photo I took yesterday morning, I parked the car for few minutes and shot it, I couldn’t resist the Autumn beauty, and it’s a lovely photo for the gratitude week 2016.

Have a great weekend and I hope you have time to enjoy the outdoors as well.

Me time

“Self-compassion is simply giving the same kindness

to ourselves that we would give to others. “

Christopher Germer

“The dinner can wait, if the kids are hungry they can eat some frozen cheese macaroni.” These were my words last evening. I was craving a time for myself after a long day at work, generally I rush home to prepare the dinner. But yesterday NO!

After few laps I was refreshed and ready to start the dinner.

Sharing with Becca’s Nurturing Thursday and Michelle’s Gratitude Week 2016

Gratitude Week #1

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Happy November!

November arrived with a gorgeous weather, around 20C! I couldn’t believe how warm and pleasant day we had today. I left my office and went for a quick walk around the Campus in the afternoon, so I could enjoy a little bit of sunshine. This building always changes its outfit, sometimes green, others red, grey, depending on the season. Now it’s red, so pretty.

I’m joining lovely Michelle for ‘gratitude week 2016‘. I’m starting a little late, since I don’t know where is my mind, I’m missing lots of stuff, until a doctor appointment that I was waiting 3 months for it! I went yesterday, 31st, and the nurse said that it was 21st. Now I have to wait more 2 weeks to see the doctor.

For today I’m grateful that:

  • Michelle signed me up for the gratitude week, despite I was late.
  • I don’t need to wait 3 months to see the doctor again, despite I missed the appointment.
  • Today was a gorgeous day.

 

It’s good when we find little things to be grateful for.

I wish a wonderful new month to you!